hi....

miss me kah??hehe

today i just want to talk about him haha, my baby now.. even i still don't know how i feel with him, but i don't want him to leave me now, like he's my life now, in the morning i've got a little fight with him, the fight start from me i think, because i shared my opinion about poligami, we have a same thought, he didn't want to poligami either, but he always saw from his bad thoughts first, he said if you can overcome the worst of things, the easy things will be easy to overcome, like he asked me what if u have a husband want to poligami and he has done all the sunnah, and other question that makes me mad, like broke me, i just want to share my knowledge that i just got, and hope when he didn't agree with me, just explain what he thinking with a nice word, not force me with other question that makes me imagine when i'm in that position "worst position". 

one time when i'm with some boys that i dated before, when i shared my thoughts or my knowledge that i just got, he reply me with a praise first, end then he explained me what he knew about the topic, i know he disagree with me, but when someone explaine with a nice word, and didn't show me that he disagree, i just feel that my knowledge not vain. 

i think i'm just irritable, in my thought, my partner should understand me that i'm irritable, and i don't want in the relationship, we always fight about little thing, when i'm in that position to hear while my partner explaine anything, i do the same thing.

i think my baby just stubborn, and he didn't know how to treat woman to fall in love with him, to make me comfort around him, appreciate me, he always see me with a bad side, when i did what he told me to do, he never praise me.

but he still my baby, after i debated with him, he said sorry, and me too, after that we video call like nothing happen. 

 hii...

i'm now with new man, actually he's not my boyfriend, but we just have a serious relationship i think, after i finished my final result in campus and i post it on ig, he chat me and we're conversations just let it flow, but at the time when he chat me, i just break up with my ex boyfriend that i said in the previous post

actually i have 4 criteria for my future boyfriend, i don't want to end up like before, and it's hard for me to start with a new guy, my habit before is always start with a new guy that i like, that makes my heart beat fast, and i run to him to make the guy like me, always like that, i don't care about he's characters, about bad traits he had, after several years i realize that if i just have love, not considering about his history, the same goal, and there's no trust between us, the relationship doesn't work, so my criteria that i made base on my religion.

1. always reading quran everyday

2. not a smoker

 3. remember surah Al-mulk

4. more tall than me

the new man that i met now have 4 criteria that i want, but there's no feel when i close with him, he can't make my heart beat fast, i just confuse, what should i do in the future, if still there's no feel with him