Hiii...

it's been so long that i didn't check my first blog that i write before and i'm sorry my english still bad so i just write what's in my head 

i just laugh when i see my first write, in that blog, i said i want to marry in 22, and now i'm almost 23 but still don't know who should i marry yet, i have a boyfriend, i'm with her almost 5 years, but i'm not sure i want to marry him or not, because he smoke and so many problem that he made, and all of it is a big problem, like a liar, cheating and other else, beside that, i'm too scraed to leave him, my family and his family are so close, and he promised not to do it again. i forgive him but still everyday i imagine his fault, i didn't want my spouse has a characters like he has, but now i'm still with him :) because only he accepts me who i am, he can control my ego, he never mad at me, even i'm wrong he debate me with a nice word and he love me. so i think i should make myself better than before, kind with other people, and more care about my parents and my sister. with that i believe that Allah didn't give me with a wrong person to become my spouse.